Dated 14-October-2008

I saw myself today in the mirror
The way I used to be
Peaking out from behind my tussled hair
Before I combed it back with my fingers
And sent myself back into hiding

I saw the child
He wasn’t upset by his dirty hands
Or the stains on his shirt
He didn’t try to hide his open smile
Or his ready frown

I saw the man inside
He wasn’t stressed and angry
He wasn’t hurt and confused
He wasn’t jaded and damaged
He was clean and open to the world

I saw myself as I can be
Devoid of the garbage and scars
Amassed through the years
And tended to like a garden of weeds
Plentiful but fruitless

As saw myself as I want to be
I saw myself as I AM
If only I can learn to let go
If only I can learn to let be
If only I can learn to be me