Dated 10-February-2009

It felt like taking off a jacket
That’s what it felt like when I let go
Like taking off a jacket.
It was cold in the morning
So I put on my jacket and went about my life
But the day warmed up
And I didn’t take off my jacket
The heat built up inside the layers
Slowly
Unnoticed
Becoming stiflingly uncomfortable
But I still didn’t take off my jacket.
Then there was the epiphany
A thump on the head
The obligatory “duh”
I’m wearing a jacket
And it’s uncomfortable
So I took off the jacket
That’s what it felt like when I let go
Like taking off a jacket

I was still uncomfortable when I let go
The built up heat of the past still clung to my body
The sweat was still dripping down my brow
The energy was still dissipating
Letting go isn’t like a light switch
There isn’t a “click” and everything’s bright all at once
Letting go is like taking off a jacket
The realization is that you still wearing it
That’s all
You still have to take it off
And cool off
And acclimate to the new temperature without the jacket
That’s what letting go is like
It’s not BANG
It’s ahhhhh
It’s relaxation
It’s cooling off and letting go of the heat
The uncomfortable
Sweaty
Stifling
Heat

And allowing the cool breeze of freedom
To caress your skin