This is either the third or fourth attempt I’ve made at a blog – even more if you go back in time and take LiveJournal into account (no worries if you’ve never heard of it). I’ve scrapped this site several times. There was no loss of interest in blogging, there was only insecurity around it. Feelings of not being good enough and not having a voice anyone would care about.
Those feelings are still there as I fire this up once again. I need to stop the cycle of desire and self-doubt and just “drudge through the drudgery to find the joy on the other side” – to quote Joshua Fields Millburn of the Minimalists.
I may very well NOT have a voice anyone cares about. There is not control I have over that. Only will tell one way or the other. A guaranteed way to make sure I don’t have a voice is to not speak. I need to get my words out there and maybe they’ll resonate, maybe they won’t. To get them resonating more I just need to get better at how I craft and share them.
This leads to the second point: I may very well suck at it. Most people DO suck at what they first start doing – it’s why we practice. The old saying is wrong by the way, practice does not make perfect. Practice DOES make better, though. I’ll never get better if I don’t do it – it will just sit in my head as an unfulfilled desire. Those get frustrating after a while.
Both conclusions are that I need to keep writing and sharing. I need to get the words out there for myself. This is ultimately for my exploration and benefit. Please keep reading if you like or not if it doesn’t strike your interest.
I can only say that I will endeavor to keep at and try to grow. I may or may not succeed – but that’s true of any venture.