I’ve more or less been holed up in my apartment for three weeks now socially isolating. I leave the house to walk the dog several times a day which keeps cabin fever at bay. I’m limiting my grocery runs to once a week. SARS-CoV-2 is expected to peak in the next few weeks and I will do my best to go nowhere unless needed and I laid in supplies this last weekend.
That being said – I want rye bread.
I noticed liverwurst in my fridge and now all I want is a loaf of rye bread to make a sandwich. My grocery store is less than a mile away. I could walk there and get rye bread. With the spread of the virus it seems irresponsible to go to the store just for rye bread while I have more than two weeks of food in my apartment.
This led me to think about instant gratification. I wasn’t aware of how subconsciously used to it I’ve become: running to the store on a whim, take-out delivery and overnight delivery. Everything I want when and where I want it. I have even gotten upset when something I didn’t really need didn’t arrive in the two-day window I was “promised”
I have no concept deprivation and waiting. It’s doubtful I know anyone who does. With the world going topsy-turvy I’m learning lessons I wasn’t aware I needed.
Stores are barely keeping up with people’s hording instincts and I need to adjust my desires to match what’s available. The big online stores are giving delivery dates of a month and not the normal next day allowing me to rethink my orders and make do with what I have on hand.
It’s also just irresponsible to go out to the store to satisfy every whim. Do I want a liverwurst sandwich on rye? Yes, yes I do. Writing this makes me want it more. Do I need a liverwurst sandwich on rye? By all objective measures – no; no I do not. Are most of the things I have ever wanted in my life needs that were required instantly – most likely no.
I will be isolating for at three more weeks from the looks of things. There will be many whims I want to satisfy in this time. These whims need to be paid attention to, analyzed and learned from. With concentration I can take the lessons from this unprecedented period in history and unlearn my reliance on instant gratification.